Many things had happened and I had decided to stop typing out my thoughts for once. However it has been months and I cannot control these emotions, thoughts and I figured Facebook is not enough. Although, I am not implying that Facebook needs a blog column because that would then be very redundant.
Since the last time I blogged, I had changed quite a fair bit. I’ve grown to be better, Alhamdulillah. Been attending lessons to fulfill my spiritual needs at Darul Arqam and so far I believe that I am a better person that way. I am no longer ignorant and I have been reading a lot too. Basically I’ve also been busy with religious classes and concentrating for my exams. I will fill in the details of what happened, what I have been doing for the past months in later posts. I promise pictures that I have taken and some things that have changed drastically that made me the way I am now.
It is coming to the end of the year and I find that I have lost 2 family members. Gain a few more, in birth and marriage. I am back to being single and am just going to enjoy it while it lasts. I can’t say for sure that I don’t want a relationship coz at the end of the day, I do. I still want to get married, have kids and stuff like that. Just gotta be patient and I do hope that it will happen for me some day, one day. Truth be told I still love him and I am finding it real hard to let go. That being said, I do fancy someone but I just have no mood, strength and will to be in a relationship before. Nonetheless, being friends is good enough for now.
2009 has been a very fateful and eventful year for me. Some people like to use the term dramatic. I think life is already a drama. It is how one reacts that becomes the determining point on how extreme the drama can be. Some people even ask me why I like these dramas in my life. Thing is, I did not choose the drama to be in my life! It happens. It comes and goes. Will tell more later. 
Surely, I’m back for good this time.